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Likutei Moharan 55:10/ליקוטי מוהר"ן נ״ה:י׳

אוְזֶהוּ שֶׁאָמַר אַבָּא שָׁאוּל:
110. This is the meaning of what Abba Shaul said:
בקוֹבֵר מֵתִים הָיִיתִי – שֶׁהָיְתָה הִשְׁתַּדְּלוּתוֹ תָּמִיד לִרְאוֹת בְּהִכָּרֵת רְשָׁעִים, שֶׁבְּחַיֵּיהֶם קְרוּיִין מֵתִים (ברכות יח:).
2I used to be an undertaker. Once, while chasing after a tzvi (deer), I entered the kulit (thigh bone) of a dead man. I chased after it for three parasangs but met up with no deer, nor did the thigh bone end. When I returned, they said to me: That was [the kulit] of King Og of the Bashan. I used to be an undertaker—He strove constantly to see the destruction of the wicked, who though alive are called dead (Berakhot 18b) .
גפַּעַם אַחַת רַצְתִּי אַחַר צְבִי – כִּי עִקַּר מַפַּלְתָּן שֶׁל רְשָׁעִים הוּא עַל־יְדֵי יְרֻשַּׁת אֶרֶץ־יִשְׂרָאֵל, עַל־יְדֵי הַמְשָׁכַת קְדֻשַּׁת אֶרֶץ־יִשְׂרָאֵל, בִּבְחִינַת שֵׁב לִימִינִי וְכוּ' כַּנַּ"ל, וְאֶרֶץ־יִשְׂרָאֵל צְבִי הִיא לְכָל הָאֲרָצוֹת (יחזקאל כ׳:ו׳).
3Once, while chasing after a tzvi—For in the main the downfall of the wicked is by means of the inheritance of the Land of Israel, by drawing the holiness of the Land of Israel, corresponding to “Sit at My right hand…,” as explained above. And the Land of Israel is “the tzvi (fairest) of all the lands” (Ezekiel 20:6) .
דוְנִכְנַסְתִּי בְּקוּלִית שֶׁל מֵת – הַיְנוּ שֶׁרָצָה לְתַקֵּן קוֹלוֹת הַנַּ"ל.
4I entered the KuLiT of a dead man—That is, he wanted to rectify the above mentioned KoLoT (sounds).
הוְרַצְתִּי אַחֲרָיו שָׁלֹשׁ פַּרְסָאוֹת – הַיְנוּ בְּחִינַת הַתְּפִלָּה, שֶׁהֵם שָׁלֹשׁ תְּפִלּוֹת, וְעַל יָדָם מִתְנוֹצֵץ אוֹר שְׁלֹשֶׁת אָבוֹת, שֶׁהֵם בִּבְחִינַת רַגְלֵי הַכִּסֵּא, כְּדֵי לְהַמְשִׁיךְ אוֹר אֶרֶץ־יִשְׂרָאֵל, שֶׁהִיא בְּחִינַת צְבִי הַנַּ"ל.
5I chased after it for three parasangs—This is the aspect of prayer, of which there are three. Through them the light of the merit of the three patriarchs—who are the legs of the Throne—shines, in order to draw the light of the Land of Israel, which is the above mentioned aspect of the tzvi .
ווּצְבִי לֹא הִגַּעְתִּי, וְקוּלִית לֹא כָּלְתָה – שֶׁלֹּא הִשִּׂיג בְּחִינַת אֶרֶץ־יִשְׂרָאֵל, בִּטּוּל קוֹלוֹת הַנַּ"ל.
6but met up with no tzvi, nor did the kulit end—He did not attain the aspect of the Land of Israel, the nullification of the sounds mentioned above.
זוּכְשֶׁחָזַרְתִּי לַאֲחוֹרַי – הַיְנוּ אַחַר גְּמַר תְּפִלָּתִי, שֶׁאָז פּוֹסֵעַ הָאָדָם לַאֲחוֹרָיו שָׁלֹשׁ פְּסִיעוֹת.
7When I returned—That is, after he finished praying, for then a person takes three steps back.
חאָמְרוּ לִי: שֶׁל עוֹג מֶלֶךְ הַבָּשָׁן הִיא – וְאֵין כָּל אָדָם יָכוֹל לְתַקֵּן קוֹלוֹת כָּאֵלּוּ, כִּי אֲחִיזָתוֹ בְּיָמִין, וַאֲפִלּוּ מֹשֶׁה רַבֵּנוּ הָיָה יָרֵא מִפָּנָיו, עַד שֶׁהִבְטִיחוֹ הַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא: אַל תִּירָא אוֹתוֹ כַּמּוּבָא בַּזֹּהַר (שם).
8they said to me: It was [the kulit] of King Og of the Bashan—Not every person can rectify kolot such as these, because [Og’s] hold is on the right side. Thus, even Moshe Rabbeinu was afraid of him until God assured him: “Do not be afraid of him,” as brought in the Zohar .
טוּבִשְׁבִיל זֶה בְּחִינַת רָשָׁע כְּעוֹג נִקְרָא פָּלִיט, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (בראשית י״ד:י״ג): וַיָּבֹא הַפָּלִיט – זֶה עוֹג (ב"ר לך לך פ' מב ועיין נדה סא ובתוספות שם וע' מ"ר דברים א׳:ד׳), שֶׁרָצָה שֶׁיֵּהָרֵג אַבְרָהָם וְיִשָּׂא אֶת שָׂרָה. וְהוּא בִּבְחִינַת: צוֹפֶה רָשָׁע לַצַּדִּיק – אַבְרָהָם וְכוּ' – ה' לֹא יַעַזְבֶנּוּ בְיָדוֹ, בִּבְחִינַת: וְתֹאחֵז בְּמִשְׁפָּט יָדִי. וְהַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא כָּבַשׁ מִשְׁפָּטוֹ מִמֶּנּוּ זְמַן רַב, עַד זְמַן מֹשֶׁה רַבֵּנוּ עָלָיו הַשָּׁלוֹם, וּבִשְׁבִיל זֶה נִקְרָא פָּלִיט, בִּבְחִינַת (איוב כ״ג:ז׳): וַאֲפַלְּטָה לָנֶצַח מִשֹּׁפְטִי – שֶׁנִּמְלַט מֵהַמִּשְׁפָּט זְמַן כַּבִּיר:
9This is why the aspect of a wicked person like Og is called “refugee,” as it is written (Genesis 14:13), “Then the refugee came”—this is Og. It was his hope that Avraham would be killed, and he would marry Sarah. He corresponds to “The wicked man watches for the tzaddik”—Avraham, etc.; “God will not abandon him into his hand”—in the aspect of “grasp judgment in My Hand.” The Holy One held his judgment in abeyance for a long time, until the time of Moshe Rabbeinu, of blessed memory. This is why he is called “refugee,” corresponding to “I will be free of my judgment forever” (Job 23:7)—he escaped judgment an extremely long time.