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Likutei Moharan 6:3/ליקוטי מוהר"ן ו׳:ג׳

אג וְצָרִיךְ לֶאֱחֹז תָּמִיד בְּמִדַּת הַתְּשׁוּבָה, כִּי מִי יֹאמַר זִכִּיתִי לִבִּי, טָהַרְתִּי מֵחַטָּאתִי (משלי כ׳:ט׳); כִּי בְּשָׁעָה שֶׁאָדָם אוֹמֵר: חָטָאתִי, עָוִיתִי, פָּשַׁעְתִּי – אֲפִלּוּ זֶה אִי אֶפְשָׁר לוֹמַר בְּבַר לֵבָב בְּלִי פְּנִיָּה.
13. Thus, a person should perpetually embrace the attribute of repentance. For “Who can say, ‘I have cleansed my heart, I am purged of my sin?’” (Proverbs 20:9). Even at the moment a person says, “I have sinned, I have transgressed, I have acted wantonly,” it is impossible for him to say this with a pure heart and without an ulterior motive.
ב(וְזֶהוּ: מִי יֹאמַר זִכִּיתִי לִבִּי, טָהַרְתִּי מֵחַטָּאתִי, הַיְנוּ מִי יוּכַל לוֹמַר, שֶׁלִבּוֹ זַךְ וְטָהוֹר מִפְּנִיּוֹת, אֲפִלּוּ בְּשָׁעָה שֶׁאוֹמֵר: חָטָאתִי וְכוּ'. וְזֶהוּ: מִי יֹאמַר וְכוּ': טָהַרְתִּי מֵחַטָּאתִי, הַיְנוּ שֶׁיִּהְיֶה טָהוֹר מִן הֶ"חָטָאתִי, עָוִיתִי, פָּשַׁעְתִּי" שֶׁאָמַר, כִּי גַּם אָז אֵינוֹ זַךְ וְטָהוֹר בְּלִי פְּנִיּוֹת כַּנַּ"ל).
2{This is the meaning of “Who can say I have cleansed my heart, I am purged of my sin.” In other words, who can say that his heart is sincere and pure of ulterior motives even at the time he is saying “I have sinned….” This is the meaning of “Who can say… I am purged of my sin”—i.e., that he is purged of the “I have sinned, I have transgressed, I have acted wantonly,” which he utters. For even then, his confession is not completely sincere and pure, without ulterior motives.}
גנִמְצָא, שֶׁצָּרִיךְ לַעֲשׂוֹת תְּשׁוּבָה עַל הַתְּשׁוּבָה הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, הַיְנוּ עַל "חָטָאתִי, עָוִיתִי, פָּשַׁעְתִּי" שֶׁאָמַר, כִּי עָלָיו נֶאֱמַר (ישעיהו כ״ט:י״ג): בִּשְׂפָתָיו כִּבְּדוּנִי; כִּי עַל־יְדֵי תְּשׁוּבָה זוֹכֶה לִכְבוֹד ה'; וְלִבּוֹ רִחַק מִמֶּנִּי.
3We find, therefore, that he must repent for his first act of repentance, for the “I have sinned, I have transgressed, I have acted wantonly” that he uttered. Of such a person it is said (Isaiah 29:13), “and he honors Me with his lips”—because through repentance he attains kavod Elohim —“but his heart is far from Me.”
דוַאֲפִלּוּ אִם יוֹדֵעַ אָדָם בְּעַצְמוֹ, שֶׁעָשָׂה תְּשׁוּבָה שְׁלֵמָה, אַף עַל־פִּי־כֵן צָרִיךְ לַעֲשׂוֹת תְּשׁוּבָה עַל תְּשׁוּבָה הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, כִּי מִתְּחִלָּה, כְּשֶׁעָשָׂה תְּשׁוּבָה, עָשָׂה לְפִי הַשָּׂגָתוֹ, וְאַחַר־כָּךְ בְּוַדַּאי כְּשֶׁעוֹשֶׂה תְּשׁוּבָה, בְּוַדַּאי הוּא מַכִּיר וּמַשִּׂיג יוֹתֵר אֶת הַשֵּׁם יִתְבָּרַךְ. נִמְצָא לְפִי הַשָּׂגָתוֹ שֶׁמַּשִּׂיג עַכְשָׁו, בְּוַדַּאי הַשָּׂגָתוֹ הָרִאשׁוֹנָה הוּא בִּבְחִינַת גַּשְׁמִיּוּת, נִמְצָא שֶׁצָּרִיךְ לַעֲשׂוֹת תְּשׁוּבָה עַל הַשָּׂגָתוֹ הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, עַל שֶׁהִתְגַּשֵּׁם אֶת רוֹמְמוּת אֱלֹקוּתוֹ.
4And even if a person knows inside himself that he has been totally sincere in his repentance, he must still repent for his first act of repentance. This is because when he first repented, he did so according to his level of perception [then]. But afterwards, when he [again] repents, he certainly recognizes and perceives even more about God. So that relative to his present perception, his first perception was certainly <crude in comparison>. We find, therefore, that he must repent for his original <repentance>, for having made crass the exalted nature of His Godliness.
הוְזֶה בְּחִינַת עוֹלָם הַבָּא, שֶׁיִּהְיֶה כֻּלּוֹ שַׁבָּת, הַיְנוּ כֻּלּוֹ תְּשׁוּבָה, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (דברים ל): וְשַׁבְתָּ עַד ה' אֱלֹקֶיךָ; כִּי עִקָּר עוֹלָם הַבָּא הוּא הַשָּׂגַת אֱלֹקוּתוֹ, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (ירמיהו ל״א:ל״ד): וְיֵדְעוּ אוֹתִי לְמִקְּטַנָּם וְעַד גְּדוֹלָם. נִמְצָא, בְּכָל עֵת שֶׁיַּשִּׂיגוּ הַשָּׂגָה יְתֵרָה, אֲזַי יַעֲשׂוּ תְּשׁוּבָה עַל הַהַשָּׂגָה הָרִאשׁוֹנָה.
5This is an aspect of the World to Come, which will be completely ShaBbaT —i.e., completely TeShuVah, as is written (Deuteronomy 30:2), “Then, ShaVTa (you will return) to God your Lord.” For the essence of the World to Come will be the ability to have a perception of His Godliness, as is written (Jeremiah 31:33), “they will know Me, from the least of them to the greatest.” Therefore, each time <he comes to> a deeper perception, <it will be necessary> to repent for the preceding perception.
ווְזֶה שֶׁאָמְרוּ חֲכָמֵינוּ זִכְרוֹנָם לִבְרָכָה (שם בסנהדרין): כָּל הַזּוֹבֵחַ אֶת יִצְרוֹ – הַיְנוּ בְּחִינַת תְּשׁוּבָה, בְּחִינַת: וְלִבִּי חָלָל בְּקִרְבִּי, בְּחִינַת דֹּם לַה', בְּחִינַת אקי"ה, בְּחִינַת כֶּתֶר, בְּחִינַת כָּבוֹד, כַּנַּ"ל, וּמִתְוַדֶּה עָלָיו – הַיְנוּ שֶׁמִּתְוַדֶּה עַל זְבִיחַת יִצְרוֹ, הַיְנוּ שֶׁעוֹשֶׂה תְּשׁוּבָה עַל תְּשׁוּבָתוֹ וְהַשָּׂגָתוֹ הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, כְּאִלּוּ כִּבְּדוֹ לְהַקָּדוֹשׁ בָּרוּךְ הוּא בִּשְׁנֵי עוֹלָמוֹת. כִּי תְּשׁוּבָה הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, בְּחִינַת כְּבוֹד עוֹלָם הַזֶּה, וְאַחַר הַתְּשׁוּבָה, שֶׁזּוֹכֶה לְהַשָּׂגָה יְתֵרָה וּמַכִּיר בְּיוֹתֵר אֶת רוֹמְמוּת אֱלֹקוּתוֹ, וְעוֹשֶׂה תְּשׁוּבָה עַל תְּשׁוּבָתוֹ – זֹאת הַתְּשׁוּבָה הוּא בְּחִינַת כְּבוֹד עוֹלָם הַבָּא.
6And this is the meaning of what the Sages taught: Whoever slaughters his evil inclination <and then confesses, it is as if he honored the Holy One in two worlds> (Sanhedrin 43b). This <slaughtering of the evil inclination> is an aspect of repentance—corresponding to “My heart is hollowed within me,” and “Be quiet before God”—an aspect of the Holy Name Ehyeh / Keter / kavod. “… and then confesses”—i.e., he confesses for slaughtering his evil inclination, repenting for his first repentance and for his original level of perception—[so that] “it is as if he honored the Holy One in two worlds.” This is because the first repentance corresponds to the kavod of this world. After he has repented and attained a greater perception and a greater recognition of the exalted nature of His Godliness, he then repents for his [earlier] repentance. This [second] repentance is the kavod of the World to Come.
זוְזֶה שֶׁאָמְרוּ חֲכָמֵינוּ זִכְרוֹנָם לִבְרָכָה (פסחים נ.): אוֹר יְקָרוֹת וְקִפָּאוֹן (זכריה י״ד:ו׳) – אוֹר שֶׁהוּא יָקָר בָּעוֹלָם הַזֶּה יִהְיֶה קָפוּי וְקַל לָעוֹלָם הַבָּא. נִמְצָא, בָּעוֹלָם הַבָּא, כְּשֶׁיִּזְכּוּ לְהַשָּׂגָה יְתֵרָה בֶּאֱלֹקוּתוֹ, בְּוַדַּאי יִתְחָרְטוּ וְיַעֲשׂוּ תְּשׁוּבָה עַל הַשָּׂגַת עוֹלָם הַזֶּה, כִּי הַשָּׂגַת עוֹלָם הַזֶּה בִּבְחִינַת גֶּשֶׁם נֶגֶד הַשָּׂגַת עוֹלָם הַבָּא,
7This is the meaning of (Zechariah 14:6): “[On that day,] there will be neither bright light nor thick darkness”—concerning which the Sages said: The light which is substantial in this world will be insignificant and slight in the World to Come (Pesachim 50a). We see, therefore, that in the World to Come, when people will merit a greater perception of His Godliness, they will surely be contrite and repent for their perception in this world. For perception in this world is <materialistic> in comparison with perception in the World to Come.
חוְזֶה כְּאִלּוּ כִּבְּדוֹ לְהַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא בִּשְׁנֵי עוֹלָמוֹת, כִּי הַזְבִיחַת הַיֵּצֶר הִיא תְּשׁוּבָה הָרִאשׁוֹנָה, הוּא בְּחִינַת כְּבוֹד עוֹלָם הַזֶּה, וְהַוִּדּוּי עַל זְבִיחַת הַיֵּצֶר, הַיְנוּ תְּשׁוּבָה שְׁנִיָּה, הִיא בְּחִינַת כְּבוֹד עוֹלָם הַבָּא, שֶׁהַכָּבוֹד הָרִאשׁוֹן נַעֲשָׂה קָפוּי וְקַל נֶגֶד הַכָּבוֹד הַשֵּׁנִי.
8Thus, “it is as if he honored the Holy One in two worlds.” The slaughter of the evil inclination is the first repentance <and> corresponds to the glory of this world. And the confession for having slaughtered the evil inclination is the second repentance, corresponding to < kavod Elohi>. This is because the original glory <is> thick and negligible in comparison with the second glory.
טוְזֶה שֶׁאוֹמֵר הַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא (תהילים נ׳:כ״א): אֵלֶּה עָשִׂיתָ וְהֶחֱרַשְׁתִּי, דִּמִּיתָ הֱיוֹת אֶהְיֶה כָמוֹךָ; כִּי הָאָדָם עַל־יְדֵי שֶׁמַּחֲרִישׁ, נַעֲשֶׂה בְּחִינַת אקי"ה כַּנַּ"ל, אֲבָל הַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא, מַה שֶּׁמַּחֲרִישׁ לָאָדָם, אֵין זֶה בִּשְׁבִיל אקי"ה, חַס וְשָׁלוֹם, כִּי זֶה אֵין שַׁיָּךְ אֵצֶל הַקָּדוֹשׁ בָּרוּךְ הוּא, אֵין זֶה אֶלָּא כְּדֵי שֶׁיְּקַבְּלוּ עָנְשָׁם בָּעוֹלָם הַבָּא, שֶׁאָז מְסַדְּרִין לְעֵינָיו עֲווֹנוֹתָיו, וְיוֹכִיחַ אוֹתוֹ עַל פָּנָיו, וְזֶה: אוֹכִיחֲךָ וְאֶעֶרְכָה לְעֵינֶיךָ:
9{“I kept silent when you did these things, [and so] you imagined that I ehyeh like you. I will rebuke you and lay it right before your eyes” (Psalms 50:21).} This is what the Holy One says, “I kept silent when you did these things, [and so] you imagined that I ehyeh (will be) like you”—because, as explained, man becomes an aspect of ehyeh by keeping silent. But when the Holy One keeps silent for a person it is not because of <the aspect of> ehyeh, God forbid. Such a concept is in no way applicable to the Holy One. It is only so that <this person might receive his punishment> in the World to Come. For, then, his transgressions are set before his eyes and he is rebuked to his face. And this is, “I will rebuke you and lay it right before your eyes.”