Chasidut · Breslov

Likutei Moharan, Part II 82:2/ליקוטי מוהר"ן·תנינא פ״ב:ב׳

אוּבְחִינַת כְּסֵדֶר נִקְרָא יוּד. שֶׁמַּלְכוּת הַנִּקְרָא דָּלֶת, לֵית לָהּ מִגַּרְמָהּ כְּלוּם, וְהַקָּדוֹשׁ־בָּרוּךְ־הוּא מַמְשִׁיךְ לָהּ חִיּוּת הַחָכְמָה, הַנִּקְרָא יוּ"ד, וְזֶה: יוּ"ד וָ"ו דָּלֶ"ת. וְזֶה: אָחוֹר וָקֶדֶם צַרְתָּנִי וַתָּשֶׁת עָלַי כַּפֶּךָ – אַל תִּקְרֵי כַּפֶּךָ, אֶלָּא כָּפֶךָ, הַיְנוּ יוּד גִּימַטְרִיָּא כָּף. וּכְשֶׁמְּחַלֵּק אֶת הד' לְעַצְמוֹ וּמַמְשִׁיךְ לְעַצְמוֹ חִיּוּת מִמֶּנָּה, אֲזַי נַעֲשֵׂית לוֹ שֶׁלֹּא כְּסֵדֶר: דַּוָּי – מִיּוּד נַעֲשֶׂה דַּוָּי. וְזֶה (ישעיה א): וְכָל לֵבָב דַּוָּי, כִּי כְּשֶׁהוֹלֵךְ לְאָדָם שֶׁלֹּא כְּסֵדֶר, זֶה לוֹ מַחֲלַת לֵב, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (משלי יג): תּוֹחֶלֶת מְמֻשָּׁכָה וְכוּ'.
12. Now, the concept of order is called yod. Malkhut, which is called Dalet, has nothing of Her own. The Blessed Holy One draws into Her the life-force of wisdom, which is called YOD, namely Yod Vav Dalet. This is also “Back and front You formed me, and You laid kapekha (Your palm) upon me”—do not read KaPekha but KaPhekha (Your [letter] kaph). This alludes to YOD, whose numerical value is kaph. But when one splits off the Dalet for himself, drawing life-force from Her to himself, things then become chaotic for him, davoy—YOD becomes DaVoY. This is “and every heart is davoy (sick)” (Isaiah 1:5), for when things don’t go as planned, that is heartache, as it is written, “Extended longing…” (Proverbs 13:12).
בוּכְשֶׁרוֹאֶה אָדָם בְּעַצְמוֹ, שֶׁהוֹלֵךְ לוֹ שֶׁלֹּא כְּסֵדֶר, יֵדַע שֶׁיֵּשׁ לוֹ גַּדְלוּת, הַיְנוּ: אֲנָא אֶמְלֹךְ – יַּעֲשֶׂה תְּשׁוּבָה וְיַשְׁפִּיל אֶת עַצְמוֹ, וְיִהְיֶה בְּחִינַת "מָה", כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (שמות טז): וְנַחְנוּ מָה, וַאֲזַי נֶחֱזָר חַוָּה לִבְחִינַת אָדָם, לִבְחִינַת מָה, וְנַעֲשֶׂה כְּסֵדֶר, הַיְנוּ אָחוֹר וָקֶדֶם וְכוּ' כַּפֶּךָ הַיְנוּ יוּ"ד:
2Thus, when a person sees within himself that things aren’t going for him as planned, he should know that he possesses haughtiness—i.e., “I will rule.” He should repent and humble himself, and be the concept of MaH, as it is written, “And we are MaH (what)” (Exodus 16:7). Then Chavah is restored to the concept of Adam/ MaH and becomes order, that is, “Back and front….”—i.e., KaPekha, namely, YOD .